Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Scrutiny and the Despicable




 
As I see and pray for Candidates and Catechumens preparing for the sacraments of initiation and full communion in the church through the Rite of Christian Initiation of Adults, I feel quite excited for them. I joyously support them in spirit and prayer.

 I must confess, though,  watching them each Sunday as they are dismissed to prepare, I become excited for me. I am humbly reminded that they are seeking the inheritance, treasure, and grace that that is already mine
 
It is so cool to be Catholic!

Through faith and Baptism we have  a God who loves  so much that he sent his only son into the world dressed in human flesh to teach us how to walk the walk and talk the talk; and when that wasn’t enough , he  paid the ransom for our sins with his own earthly life.  We have a Holy Spirit for counsel, guidance, comfort, healing and strength.  We have our One Holy Catholic Church that is rich in liturgy, sacrament and tradition and descends from the apostles. We have Holy Mary, mother of God.

We sing and pray in communion with Angels and Saints, and we are invited and welcomed to the Holy Banquet where we revere the very presence of Christ in the Eucharist.  We live in anticipation of the resurrection of the dead and life at throne of grace in the Heavenly Jerusalem for all of eternity.

My cup runneth over.

During Lent, the candidates, and catechumens, who are now referred to as the elect, enter the period of purification and enlightenment.  In addition to the practices of prayer, fasting and alms giving, Lent is also a time of purification and enlightenment for us. 

It is so hard to be good. 

 We fall off track, we turn back, we acknowledge our sins we ask forgiveness, and we start over.   The deeper we grow in holiness, sadly the deeper our awareness of sin becomes.
When my youngest was in the second grade, he made an ornament in his faith formation class. It was a Styrofoam ball decorated with sequins and glitter, and a little band of paper that said-

 “I shall not kill”. 

 I read it aloud not really knowing what to think -when he suddenly blurted out,
“Mom, I am sure that I can do that one.” 

On the other end of the spectrum, I remember reading that a former Papal secretary Monsignor Tran Ngoc Thu had reported that Pope John Paul II celebrated reconciliation every week confessing his sins of omission.

Three ancient rites known as “the Scrutinies” are celebrated on the 3rd 4th and 5th Sundays of Lent.  The readings for the scrutinies are from cycle A of the lectionary. The gospel readings, from the book of John are the Woman at the Well, The Man Born Blind, and The Raising of Lazarus.  The elect reflect on the readings and scrutinize, or take a good hard look at their lives and their relationship to God.
The actual Rite entails a calling forth of the elect before the assembly, a call to silence, a prayer of exorcism, petitions, laying on of hands and dismissal.

The readings for the scrutinies also offer us an opportunity to take a good hard look at our relationship with God and to-    scrutinize.

In preparation for the sacrament of reconciliation I reflect on all my failings and think to myself- 


"Oh, you despicable self."


But when all is confessed-
and I promise to do better-
God's grace resonates in my soul.
My despicable self knows the grace  and peace  that surpasses all understanding in Christ  Jesus ,
and

I Rejoice!


Saturday, February 15, 2014

Out of Silence

Three years.
Perhaps it was a  retreat of sorts.
An exercise.
A Discipline.
Stillness,waiting, hoping
to hear the
Voice of God
over my own.